Silent Night, Lonely Night

A little flash fiction to finish up the Christmas run. Two more blogs to come, one on Friday (the final music extravaganza) and one on Christmas Day. But today, a different kind of fiction for your consideration.

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Lucius waved bye-bye just like the tow-headed girl heading out the door. Two years or seventy years, the wave was the same. One dictated by a lack of experience, the other by severe arthritis. Both full of love.

He watched through the glass wall as the final few families safely braved the blowing snow and fired up their cars. Once, long ago, he would have heard them over the storm. Now, well – nothing but a roaring silence in his ears.

Unseen, the disc of Christmas carols hit its final note and the silence of conclusion erupted in the room. Looking around, Lucius realized that for the first time in the past thirty-seven days he was alone in a place that should have been filled with people. While the quiet of his home was now laden with sadness in the wake of his wife’s death, the series of events he had attended as Santa had boosted his spirits out of the depression he’d worn like a cloak. Now, at 8:03 in the evening, that sadness had found him and snuck in the door as the last child had walked out to the parking lot.

A light caught his eye, and turning in his chair he picked up the single tin Christmas tree ornament that remained on the small platform behind him. Only two hours ago nine kindergartners had danced in their reindeer costumes and posed for pictures. This small reminder of their presence was likely the only joy remaining in the room.

Looking at the ornament, a small reindeer, he contemplated the loss and sadness of the last year. Married for forty years, his wife’s passing had been tougher than anything he’d ever known, surpassing even the loss of their only son in a war that nobody ever acknowledged. That medal in the shadow-box at home was like the ornament in his left hand: merely a shiny bauble that brought up memories but left an emptiness.

The room was clean: the staff had cleaned as they went tonight. Pizza boxes and plates shuffled into the dumpsters while he perched toddlers on his lap. The tables were wiped down, and there was a uniformity of space between the chairs. He was surprised by the size of the room where he’d ruled for the last two hours, it was almost as large as the mega-church sanctuary beyond the doors eighty feet from his throne.

Silence. No joyous squeals. No music. No chaos from kids photo-bombing him and trying to peek into his special bag. A blanket of lonely was covering him up like the snow outside: rapid, cold, and driven by the unforgiving wind of time. Tonight could be his last: he didn’t really have any reason to get up tomorrow. Just another day without a soul to share it.

The door to the daycare center opened and Miss Jennifer emerged. He hadn’t realized she’d stayed behind. A smile crossed his face, for she was truly an angel to behold. Others may not see it in her weathered features, but he saw the college girl inside of the grandmother. That spirit continued to thrive in her, where it had died in him.

“Lucius! I thought you’d bailed when the music shut off. What on earth are you doing out here?”

He dangled the tin reindeer from his white-gloved finger, “Spending some time with Rudolph. I’m in no rush to go anywhere in this storm.”

Pulling up a chair next to him, she began to sit down. Laughing, she stood up, pulled the cell phone from the back pocket of her jeans and said, “Time for a Santa selfie! I watched the kids doing that all night and envied them the opportunity. Now that I’ve got you to myself, I’m going to join in on the fun.”

Gently, she sat on his right knee and extended her right arm. He smiled at the camera as a pure reflex, and only after she struggled to hit the button did he notice her crooked fingers.

The image froze, and she swiped a wrinkled finger across the screen. Hitting one icon and then tapping with her thumb, she chortled. “I’ve got more Twitter followers than the pastor! I love sharing these pictures.”

Picture tweeted, he figured she’d hop up and leave. But she lingered on his knee. He realized he had been staring at the doors to the sanctuary and hadn’t heard her words.

“Sorry, Miss Jennifer, but what did you say?”

“I said you had the most beautiful eyes I’ve ever seen, Lucius. How did I never notice that before?”

Her hand cupped his face and she gazed into his eyes. “Yes. The most beautiful eyes ever. But what are they seeing, Lucius? I can see the tears at the edges?”

Leaning in, she adjusted her small frame and tucked her head into the crook of his neck. Like the children he’d held just an hour before, he could sense her wonder and awe, but it wasn’t at his appearance. It was something different – something deeper.

“You know, I lost my whole family over thirty years ago this week. My husband and the kids were all coming from a party at our old church and they lost control in a storm like the one outside tonight. Nothing but a slippery road and a steep hill, but they were all gone in an instant. I mourned a long time. Just like you. But it healed.”

Lucius wrapped his arm around her back and held her closer. It was the first time he’d felt alive in months. Not a romantic love, but Agape love.

“I’m tired of being sad. I’m tired from the last month. I don’t have that energy anymore, and it’s left me more empty than I realized. Those children are like a sugar high: the crash is monumental. Tonight, with the storm …”

Jennifer gently slid off his lap and extended her hand. “I want to show you something nobody but me has ever seen. Come with me, Lucius.”

Taking her hand, he stood slowly, bent by the years and his mourning. His boots clicked on the tile as they walked to the darkened sanctuary. Jennifer paused inside the doorway, giving their eyes a chance to adjust to the lack of light, saying nothing at all.

Lucius was content just to hold her hand and feel the warmth, but realized he should take off his hat in this place. As he did, he realized there was a glow coming from the left of the stage.

The exit lights over the doors were not the source, and it puzzled him. It must be the public address system panel, for he knew it was over there somewhere. But he couldn’t quite make it out.

“You see it, don’t you? I wasn’t sure the first time either, but if you think about what this room looks like in the daytime, you’ll figure it out.”

Lucius wracked his brain for a few minutes. He didn’t attend services much in December – too many breakfasts with Santa on Sundays.

Looking just to the right of the light, it dawned on him what he was seeing: it was the manger that they put up as part of the Christmas pageant. Well, that was nice. A little light must be in the manger to make the baby Jesus glow.

“It’s a light in the manger.”

Jennifer squeezed his hand. “No. Not like you think. I spotted this years ago one night when the power went out and I was in here feeling sorry for myself. Almost twenty years ago tonight. You remember that ice storm? No power for almost a week. I was here to check the building when the power went out. But that glow didn’t start until I’d been praying in the dark for almost an hour.”

Lucius kept her hand in his, and started down the aisle. The light gently pulsed as he approached. It wasn’t an LED, or a bulb: it was a ethereal glow like Saint Elmo’s Fire, and it was surrounding the child in the manger.

Sinking to his knees, Lucius stared at the manger. Tears flooded his eyes, and his soul expanded to fill his chest. Just like the Grinch’s small heart on Christmas morning.

And when his chest didn’t feel quite so tight, he got to his feet and bowed stiffly at the waist.

Feeling a squeeze on his hand, he turned to look at Jennifer. “Let’s go get some hot chocolate and talk about what we’re doing for Christmas dinner.”

The two old souls had been renewed by a baby’s love. It was time to live again.
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The Point Is – Well, The Point Is To Be A Decent Human.

Because it wouldn’t be fair, I’m not going to name names or topics for the purposes of today’s blog.

What I will say, and say it loudly, is that we’re all pretty reprehensible on occasion. Every one of us has managed to set friends and loved ones to grind their teeth in the past two years. Not even related to political arguments, but instead, simply misunderstood. Sometimes in ways so wildly unimagined that it could not have been prevented. Sometimes it’s because of a hurt, a past, a fear for the future that we are unaware of in our blindness. Worst of all, it’s something we perhaps should understand, but have no cultural or spiritual basis to move from in our ignorance.

This does not mean that we are failures. It only means that we have an almost unlimited amount of room to grow. Below the fold, I’ll talk a bit about that issue: growth.

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Facebook. Love it, or hate it, it’s a part of the social discourse in our society. One thing I’ve tried very hard to do is not blast people in the comments. I did that but once this past political season, and then truly to show that it wasn’t as gloomy and bad as my friend had thought. But apart from that exception, I try very hard to be wry, sly, humorous in the comments, and offer private counsel in the form of an email, or a private message, when my friends derail in their moments of zeal and stupidity.

Yes, STUPIDITY. It earns capital letters when it involves off-color comments about race, religion, sex, or sexual preference. Why wouldn’t I simply unfriend them and wash my hands? Because I know that nobody is perfect, and in many of the cases they aren’t as bad as that one-off comment might make it seem. If they are rabidly noxious, they usually unfriend me long before I can get around to it.

But I make the case quietly, with thought, and kindness. I appeal to the better nature I know is inside of them. Sometimes it works. Sometimes you have to “school” someone rather than just beat them down. The goal is to persuade and show something else that is better.

Recently, as alluded to in the first line, that happened with someone I know. Their post was angry, full of hurt and hate. And a misconception about the people involved. Just so happened that I knew the offenders very well. And the circumstances even better. And that it wasn’t what my friend who posted thought it was.

Consequently I sent a message and explained the context, the history, and the people. And I asked for them to take that into account as well as my personal word that all was truly well.

A short time went by with no response. But eventually the little window popped up and they thanked me for my counsel. And, most importantly, they edited their post. With the mere trimming of thirty words, and change of hashtags, it went from anger and hurt to joy and hope.

All because we were both rational. We both took the time to listen. We both took the time to appreciate the fact that while we are different colors, educations, professions, genders, and cities of origin, we share more in common as humans. And when we admit that showing some love and tolerance for people who are really angry with us/our group/our political party/our race/our choice of car then, and only then, can we get past hurling epithets and instead smile and shake hands.

Seems a good message given that the Prince of Peace is being celebrated this time of year.

Take that extra breath. Hold your tongue. And extend your hand in friendship.

See you soon.

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Three Strikes And I’m Out?

Week #3.

Every year I try to bulk up the Fridays with some music videos that might have escaped your attention. Some are repeats of previous years (love them) and some are new.

So, turn down the speakers on your desk at work, and get busy wasting corporate bandwidth!

Today we rock. Let’s start with Aerosmith. It’s some serious Steven Tyler doing Santa Claus Is Coming To Town

Now The Jackson Five doing I Saw Mommy Kissing Santa Claus.

Time for some New Jersey kids: Frankie Valli and the Four Seasons with Jungle Bells.

Of course, I must include some real dreck: The Beatles Christmas Time Is Here Again..

Talk about phoning it in…

Time for England to rescue its reputation. Sir Elton John singing White Christmas

So, all in for Britian it is: Queen doing Thank God It’s Christmas

Well, maybe not all in… but one more: Wham! doing Last Christmas – Don your earmuffs!!!

Palate cleanser after that one, and not a rocker. Alabama performing Christmas In Dixie

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A Warm Paw Offered In Love. Another Gigantic Step.

Most of you have read a bit on this blog, or on my Facebook page, about my rescue Sheltie, Stormy. She’s been with us almost four years now, and is doing pretty well. Grey on the chin from age, still pretty spry, and finally accepting us (the humans in the house) as friends, not as potential poisoners posing as kind people.

One, or more, of us is nuts.

One, or more, of us is nuts.

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Recently I was sitting on the couch watching some serious documentary action scroll by on Netflix. Stormy came over, plopped down on the floor like the Sphinx, and stared at me. I gently tapped the top of her foot with my toes. Instant movement to get out of reach. I kept following her toes with mine until she tired of the game. Gently, with the kind of caress that only lovers and parents share, I brought my foot up against the pads on the bottom of her paw and left just the slightest pressure before setting my foot down. She dozed off in a minute or two, and that very warm set of toes rested there for quite a while.

My wife got up and walked across the room, and naturally the dog rolled upright and watched her as she went. What happened next was one of the nicest things to happen to me this year. Instead of following my wife upstairs, which Stormy is in the habit of doing, she rolled back on her side. A moment later, she brought her paw over my foot, and very slowly put it right back where it had been a moment before – resting on my toes.

The warmth of that embrace was what you feel when you hold the hand of someone you love. It was, in fact, the exact same thing but across species lines. A remarkable bit of progress for a dog that wouldn’t even stay on the same floor of the house with me for the first month of her residence here.

She still has issues with noises, thunderstorms, sudden movement, and there hasn’t been a face-licking yet. But she just held my hand with her heart.

I’m good with that. Thank you, God, for healing her heart so much. Mine too.

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It’s Friday – More Strange Christmas Videos Just For You!

Week #2.

Every year I try to bulk up the Fridays with some music videos that might have escaped your attention. Some are repeats of previous years (love them) and some are new.

So, turn down the speakers on your desk at work, and get busy wasting corporate bandwidth!

It ain’t ABBA, but Bjorn Again with Little Drummer Boy.

Okay, quit your whining. I know you want more ska. But you’ll have to settle for Bob Marley doing White Christmas.

So, can you get to a more diametrical opposite of a ganja smoking dude from Jamaica than Pentatonix? Probably not. Here they are doing Silent Night.

Like that? I thought so. Here are The Temptations doing Silent Night.

Nothing says Christmas like The Three Stooges. I Want A Hippopotamus For Christmas. (On a personal note, my mother hates this album. I memorized it, much to the glee of my father – a fellow Stooges fan – and regularly sang it all the way through, very loudly. Because there is no other way to sing with The Stooges.)

Not enough to satisfy you? Well, here’s another Stooges classic: Wreck The Halls With Boughs Of Holly.

Enough merriment. This is a serious holiday. To whit, Run DMC with Christmas In Hollis.

This next pick was random, but few are in greater contrast musically than Dean Martin with White Christmas.

Let’s wrap it up today with Benny Goodman. Yup, Jingle Bells by the King of Swing.

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