Just Another Day At The Bar: A Little Almost Flash Fiction

This will be good. I promise. It had better be, as I had it almost finished last time and then WordPress barfed all over itself and deleted everything but the title. So, with ABBA Metal Covers playing in my headphones, I will try to catch that lightning in the bottle again. 

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Dr. Shalmut Teller’s phone rang just as the hour was ending with his patient. The patient, a laborious windbag of the first order turned their head when the phone buzzed in his pocket, but said nothing. Perhaps in hopes of talking another ten minutes on the Doctor’s nickel, versus paying for the time. No game, as the Doctor stood, straightened his coat in a perfect Picard maneuver, and handed him a tissue as he left the room.

Looking at the message on the screen, Shalmut frowned. Again. Trudy was on the loose and the tracking software he’d installed on her cell phone was alerting him to the fact that she’d remained outside of one of seven locations for longer than eight minutes. Why eight minutes? He’d calculated that eight minutes was long enough for her to park within the two block trigger radius and walk to the bar. 

More than angry, he was simply sad. The seven locations were the spots where she’d been involved in violent incidents over the last five years. There were a few others, but Trudy was a creature of habit and usually went to the same places out of ease of transit. 

It hadn’t always been like this. Once, when they were young and he was in his first year of med school, they’d fallen in love at the university. She’d been waiting tables while working on her MFA and he’d been drinking coffee and studying inorganic chemistry. 

Trudy was smoking hot in his opinion. She’d gone to college on a full scholarship for weightlifting, and while she was strong as a bull she was feminine and charming. Her muscles were well proportioned, and her frame was ideal for power lifting. She was also brilliant, and after graduation she was a full-time writer for several travel magazines. It was creative writing at its best, because she made up most of the stories with never having visited the locations. 

That had all changed six years ago when the attack in the garage took place. Trudy had been parked in a ramp downtown, and as she got in her car some thug brained her with a baseball bat. It was a miracle that she’d survived, and even more of a testament to her strength that she worked through all the therapy and regained her speech and motor skills. 

But the cost was an unpredictable one: she became an alcoholic after a life of barely touching the stuff. The problem was that with the remnant of the brain damage from the attack, her control centers were almost gone. One drink quickly became half-a-bottle, and after the first few drinks she became mean. Very mean.

On more than one occasion he’d been beaten badly by the woman he loved but couldn’t turn his back on. She’d eventually pass out, but he’d lost four teeth and suffered a number of broken bones over the past few years. He never reported it to the police, and when people asked him about his injuries he claimed a streak of bad bicycle accidents. Not one person believed him. 

The worst part was the expense of other’s injuries. He was able to cover most of her damage to the bars where she started fights, and fortunately (or unfortunately) she usually picked opponents who were larger and less drunk than she was. Consequently, they largely laughed her off and held her at bay: it was hard to punch a beautiful woman out.

But the problem of the law had reared it’s head when she punched an undercover cop so viciously that he needed medical treatment. She spent a weekend in jail, and Shalmut had left her there instead of bailing her out. His hope was that she’d awaken to the problem and curb her drinking. 

That was a vain hope, and he had paid off so many cops and bartenders over a short time that he sought a different solution.

Being a Doctor had some pluses, primarily the ability to prescribe medication. Trudy was a day drinker, and he figured if he could get the day shift bartenders in her favorite places to help out he could manage her.

His plan was simple: find out where she was, call the bar, and confirm her presence. If it was one of his tame bartenders (who were all on a handsome retainer) he would go to the secure identification feature on his phone and give the bartender a one-time code that was good for exactly one minute. 

This allowed the bartender to get to the office of the bar, punch in the code in the lockbox installed there, and gain access to a single dose of liquid Benzodiazepine that was kept in the box. Just large enough to slow her down to be collected, not large enough to cause her to pass out. More of a zombie impact than anything else. 

His call to Gabe’s Emporium met with success. He was already in the car and headed there when the bartender asked for the code. Once he had served her the drink, he hung up the phone and the clock was ticking.

Shalmut arrived just as she slumped on the bar. He handed over a pair of crisp Benjamins and collected his wife. She walked herself to the car and fell asleep in the passenger seat as he took her home. She’d sleep for the next few hours. 

Shalmut was relieved that trouble had been avoided, but this was not a long term solution. Neither were the tears he shed as he sat in his home office seeking something to help. 

And he prayed. For the first time in years, he prayed. 

Hopefully God was listening.

 

Interesting Times

I’m sitting in my office on a relatively cool day in Southwest Florida: 78 degrees with some clouds. It’s beautiful.

I’ve been a busy boy lately, and apologize for hiding in the basement like I was a presidential candidate. Not that I have a basement here, because I live in the Everglades. But you get my drift.

The last two days were spent at my church replacing ceiling fans. For those of you who do not live in hot climates, or who have air conditioning and have never had the joy of NEEDING a fan, they come in all shapes and sizes. I’ve got six in my house, running from 52 to 72 inches. Some are three speed, some are remote controlled with infinite speed range (it looks like a Kamov-25 when it goes to top speed) some are easy to install, others require me to grow hair to rip out.

The church install was a team effort with my friend Brian. After a few minutes of deep thought, we figured out a system and went to work. He preassembled the fans to the point where they’d go up the ladder easily, and I went around the church taking down the old ones. The old ones weighed in at 1.5 tons each, so it was a challenge. I’d prep the monster, Brian would come to take the beast after I detached it, and then I’d continue to remove the old base parts. 

We even managed to replace one at the apex of the ceiling over the altar with no bad words, no injuries, and the two of us not falling off ladders. God was definitely involved.

But that’s not even the big thing I’ve been doing: I finished another audio book this week. I had started it before my wife’s gallbladder exploded in a subatomic blast, life went in the tank with the flu, and all the other interruptions that were life. My original goal was to be done by Christmas. But I managed to finish it before Ash Wednesday, so that’s pretty good. 

I’ll announce the title after she trumpets the news to her readers: don’t want to steal the thunder. It should be on sale around the 20th of March if ACX/Audible are up to speed. Title and cover art will be announced once I have a date.

Now, out to water the trees. My time for not thinking too hard each day.

 

I hope you have a blessed day. 

[Ed: actual fan weight may have been a completely made up number.]

 

This Is What Resilience Is All About

Many of you know that I teach/mentor a course on mental wellness. It specifically focuses on Mental Resilience for first responders. I don’t always practice what I preach, and I’m childish  when I fret. 

But the base has been laid down for a couple of decades. I have waxed and waned on my physical/mental resilience. I’ve slacked off due to injuries, or desk work, and neglected my well-being on more than one occasion over the years. 

However, I’ve always realized that if I kept to certain basic principles and just endured the stupid things that happen I could do some amazing things. This is where the resilience comes in: I have done it in the past and I know that while I’m older and slower, I can still do many of the tasks I pulled off 23 years ago when I did my first half-marathon.

With that in mind, I started training for this race last summer before I even knew it was coming. My original goal was to walk 13.1 miles on Veteran’s day. But the Southwest Florida heat and humidity made that training hard. I never got past about the 6 mile mark with a light pack. It was just stupid to force my over sixty body to do it in the heat of the day. Chewy could only manage about 1.5 miles with comfort. So we dialed back and did that for a few months. 

Then, in a serendipitous moment, I was talking to the manager of the local AAMCO who was replacing my clutch. Turns out he was training and running 1/2 marathons, not sure he could do a full. I told him that if I could do it (Green Bay 2000) anyone with the will could do it. He told me about a marathon 10 miles from my house. That marathon was this past Saturday. 

We both signed up that day, and I started to train in earnest. My wife’s surgeries (four of them in two months) hindered my progress, but I stuck with a basic plan and got up to doing 8 miles with a 34 pound pack. My goal was to wear a 35 pound pack for the half-marathon. No problem in sight, as I headed into January with a goal of adding a few pounds of weight each walk and two more miles by the end of the month. 

Then the flu hit. I haven’t been that sick in a very long time. I was wasted. No energy, just wanted to sleep. I managed to make my work commitments over that time but no training. I started to train again just two full weeks before the race, but was struck with food poisoning. Three more days shot. This is me at the pathetic nadir of 3.5 weeks of being sick and listless.

But two things happened at the same time: we had winter and I knew I was going to do this. I watched all of my plantain trees turn brown and appear to die. No leaves left. But, like my training and visualization of doing this race, they had a good basis. I planted them deep, lined the holes with white wood chips, cow manure, and Miracle Grow potting soil. Our land is all sand, and without this foundation nothing but scrub grows.

I watered them dutifully during the hot months, and the dry months. And wouldn’t you know it, the day I took my first really long walk after having the flu (with that heavy pack for 6 miles) the trees each sprouted new leaves. All of them.

I knew that my diligence in both the trees, and preparing myself for this event would pay off. Part of the course we teach (Navigating Adversity) involves multiple pillars of individual strengths that we draw on to be resilient. 

I drew on those strengths: I was financially secure and could afford the entry fee. I was spiritually ready, as I have a good relationship with God. I was emotionally ready, for I knew even if I failed at the event itself, making the attempt would be good for me. I was marginally physically ready, but the underlying work I’d done would help compensate for missing a month of training right before the race. I set out the tools for race day, and brought high energy to breakfast (the traditional Milky Way bars, which have not failed me for decades). I carried GU energy gels to scarf every two miles, and two liters of Pedialite to drink in addition to the water stops. 

The race started out just after dawn, 0700. I had forsaken the heavy pack, and instead wore a five pound fanny pack. About 140 people at the starting line. Within six blocks I could no longer see any of them, and it became my race against myself. I haven’t “run” since 1995 when I got a new steel rod in my leg and dislocated my foot – can’t take the impact. But I can walk. and I set out to do just that for 13.1 miles. 

By the time I hit the long straightaway at the three mile mark, it was 80 degrees, very sunny, and no shade. It was 3.5 miles out and 3.5 miles back from that point. Like most out-and-back races, I had no idea where the turn was, and in fact it was over what passes for a hill around here at a bend in the road. But I wasn’t going to quit. I just kept marching along. I’m a tough old moron and stubborn.

Four hours and 52 minutes after I started the race, I crossed the finish line. I was dehydrated in spite of my best efforts, and the blisters had kicked in at mile 10. But I finished. All by myself, dead last in the 1/2 marathon race, I finished.

And so, not only do the trees have new leaves, but I have a new finisher’s medal from the Ave Maria half-marathon.

Now it’s time for the small rewards you get with a milestone. I’ll be doing that this week. But the moral of the story is that even when disease, work interruptions, depression, and hot weather (or freezing weather for the trees) hammer on you, if you have the foundation for survival and resilience, you can claw your way back to the finish line. You might smell bad (I sure did) and they may have to mail your medal out to you (they ran out and I borrowed this from another finisher for the photo) a month later, but you can make it through to the other side. 

It is possible. But you have to do the work ahead of time that lets you bounce back from a bad season. I don’t just teach the material, I live the philosophy. It works. 

Now, what was the first reward? A steak dinner with appetizers, giant ribeye, potato with fixings, a green salad, a strawberry shortcake desert and coffee. 

The next reward is somewhere in a local shop: just gotta find the right model!

Be well. Work on your resilience. I hope nothing but the best for all of you.

Well, That Was A Month Shot To Hades And Back

I’ve been really good about keeping the tank full on this thing for the last 12 years. I think. It’s been over a decade. 

January 2022 was the month it all fell apart. I feel I owe you all an explanation of why. I probably don’t, but if you’re reading this you get all the inside dope.

First, some snark: If you are at an intersection and are more than 3 feet from the car in front of you, I know that either you were texting, or you’re a moron who thinks you might get Chinese Virus from getting too close. Uh, what about the car next to you? Yeah, lateral dispersion. This has come to my attention lately since I’ve been driving into to town almost every day for 3 months +. Not only do the local drivers drive like maniacs, pass on the double yellow, and ride the bumper (it looks like their being towed) of the vehicle in front of them, but since they’re texting they get to the stop light and stop 2-3 car lengths behind the car in front. It’s more than moderately annoying, it means that if you’re trying to get to the turn lane and you’re more than 4 cars from the light, there’s a great chance that two of these “gappers” have now blocked your chance. 

I checked with the State Police, and it is not a lawful remedy to fire warning shots to encourage them to pull up. Oh, well.

In light of the last paragraph, I have not been locked up against my will in any sort of institution. Instead, I had the worst case of flu (influenza, not the Chinese bioweapon that is making the world needlessly tremble) that I’ve experienced since the 1980’s on ship when they jabbed us all and I was deathly ill two different years out of 3 in the Navy. 

This hit me like a bus. Chills, sweats, no fever that I could detect, cough, some sniffles, body aches, and fatigue. Not just “weary” but sleep 14 hours exhausted. I barely managed to do the minimum stuff I had to to get by. I did no recording for a month, no blogs. I sat on the couch and read. I took naps. If you know me, naps ain’t my thing. I was so sick that Chewy slept next to me several days. He complains that I kick my feet and break wind when I sleep. True. But he’s a darned fine nurse and he knew I needed his comfort.

Once I’d finally put the flu behind me, and was in day two of resuming my training for next week’s 1/2 marathon (yeah, I didn’t train for a month. Remember, I was doing great to get out of bed) I managed to give myself food poisoning. I figured out that it wasn’t the church pot luck, but a brick of cream cheese on a bagel. Huh? Well, also during the month of january I lost about 20 pounds. I had no appetite. Food wasn’t nauseating, but I just couldn’t bring myself to eat much. I would guess that average daily calorie consumption was under 600 most days. Those were the days I forced down a Clif bar for breakfast. That was often it for the day. As a result, that brick of spread went south and took me along with it for about 12 hours of “unhappy decorating” as I think of it.

Mind you, the jeans I bought just before the Chinese bioweapon attack once again fit me well. But what a price to pay: a month of lassitude.

I’m feeling much better, but as an asthmatic I am coughing more than ever. That will pass based on experience. But the fatigue is still hanging on. For the first time in my later life I’m not feeling guilty when I eat cookies or candy: I need the calories. Today was probably about a 1100 calorie day. Big eating. 

The 1/2 marathon? I’m going to try it on Saturday. I will not be lugging the 35 pound ruck this time around. I’m glad that I trained (up until Christmas) with a heavy pack: it means I’m ready to at least wing it with a light harness just to carry fluids. I am also in possession of so many finisher medals for marathon style races that if I poop out at mile 9 I won’t be ashamed to take a ride to the finish. I’ve checked that box on the life list at least 20 times so I ain’t got nuttin to prove. 

Well, back to the couch. Chewy is waiting for me to rub his back and watch the tube. I’m good with that.

My apologies for the long absence. But dang, at least I look almost skinny.

Not Actually Dead

But it’s sure seemed that way a couple of days.

Just a brief update: I’ve had the flu of some sort for 3 weeks now, and finally getting better. But there’s been little done besides napping all day and shivering or sweating.

I promise to do better next week.